Blinded By The Light

Every day things happen, things that throw people off of the course that they thought they were on.

There are people in your life right now that you know really well, but what would it take them doing to change your opinions on them completely?

We get so wrapped up in the little things, only the bad little things I mean. If someone does a nice little thing for you, you will notice, but you will let it pass by, and maybe eventually completely forget. As humans, and especially we do this a lot. How many times have you stared at your phone wondering why someone hasn't called you, or more modernly texted, you back? Did you sit back and think about the last great compliment they gave you, or something that they randomly said that made you smile.

Imagine with me for a second that you are sitting there waiting for a message from your loved one, and an acquaintance of yours messages you, they don't normally message you, so you reply with your one word, or one sentence answers. Eventually your loved one gets back to you, and this other friend takes up even less of your mental capacity. STOP!

Why is this other person messaging you?
Are you normally a shoulder to cry on?
Do they need you?


and even better question is; are they ever there for you. Some people are born listeners, and some born talkers. But everyone sometimes needs to be the other person.

I am having a bad day, I woke up and got in a fight with my mom, then I spent almost an hour having conversations with someone who I don't really like, then the frantic angry messages started coming in, caught in the middle of a fight of two of my friends where I shouldn't be involved, but she is my best friend. I couldn't really get ahold of my boyfriend all day and when I did I seem to piss him off very easily, The pains in my arm are nearly unbearable today, even as I type this.And lastly I am stressed out about my exams, but people just keep brushing it off when I talking to them "i'm sure you will do fine..."(Now back to me)

I just was kind of wishing that I could talk to someone, but everyone seems in a bad mood today. Someone I'm sure will tell me tomorrow that I could have called them, but sometimes I just don't think to call people, I am afraid that if I tell them to much they will run away just like other wonderful people in my life.

I was talking to a girl I used to be friends with and her actual reason that she told me for why she couldn't deal with me was I said to much. I have thousands of her secrets, and I still ache to hurt her as bad as she hurt me.

People mess you up, they leave scars and they tear you up in ways you could never imagine, then we throw these walls up all around us and we barely ever take them down. I believe that all people are good, so why is it that I can still hate people and hold grudges as easily as I do?

Ponder this: We all have scars and we all have things going on that others don't understand, but when did you last break down someones wall to try and see them?


And I finish with this quote from the movie "Crash" because I think that it is so true of humanity.

"We're always behind this metal and glass, I think that we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so that we can feel something."